I welcomed myself to the edge of nowhere; a place we all know and don’t want to go. Last week, I went to that edge. I jumped off the edge and fell into my own core. So, what do I mean by this? I spent three weeks streaming words through my fingers like a madwoman.… Read More »The Edge of Nowhere: Perseverance and Breakthrough
Last Mental Health Monday, I mentioned the Most Valuable Person, and re-reading the post, I realized I didn’t define it well. I mentioned going through multiple MVPs, but let’s go through what I mean by that. When I say the Most Valuable Person, or MVP in the context of Borderline Personality Disorder, I mean the… Read More »Walking the Borderline to Self-Mastery: Defining The MVP
“She could do so much better if she would only apply herself.” That, in a sentence, is the story of my childhood. The issue was, I was applying myself. To all the things that wouldn’t serve me in the end. See, I applied myself to being all things to all people. All. The. Time. So… Read More »Walking the Borderline to Self-Mastery: The Beginning and the Role of the MVP
Let’s talk about villains. I’m not talking about the Empire. I’m talking about Darth Vader. Because the Empire wasn’t the real bad guy in Star Wars. They were just window dressing for the real thing. Vader. A very bad man with a seed of good in him. A conflict we can all relate to. The… Read More »Villains: The Real Issues
This is Lindsey Stirling. I love her. Give the song a listen before we continue, and check out the lyrics while you do. Gave it a good listen? That is what doing the work in therapy feels like. It’s frightening. It’s not at all fun. And it’s the self-realization that helps the most. My newest… Read More »Shatter Me: Trusting the Process
Do your problems happen to be part of you? Or do they define you? I had to ask myself these questions last July when I faced the diagnoses of bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. Was I bipolar? Was I borderline? No. I have these challenges, but these challenges are not who I am. I’m… Read More »Don’t Let Your Problems Fool You: You’re Not Them
I bought myself a treat two weeks ago. Big mistake. Big. Huge. The mistake? I didn’t read the ingredients list. Normally, I’m an ingredient-reading maniac. I read all of the ingredients on every list. ALL OF THEM. This time, I figured the meds would keep me safe. That’s what they’re for, right? To keep my… Read More »Food and Mood: Why I’m A Compulsive Label-Reader
I gave up yesterday. I consider it a good thing. For the last two years I’ve been in a case for disability benefits. I filed in Utah while still married. We moved to California and I continued the case, changing doctors to find one that might help my case. Looking for a lawyer after being… Read More »Why I Gave Up
I just swallowed three more pills. One mood stabilizer, one atypical anti-psychotic used as a sleep aid, and one anti-seizure medication also used for preventing chronic migraines. The last one I take morning and night. That one only started a month ago. A month before that, I added an anti-depressant to the mix. I also… Read More »One More Day, One More Pill
Healing is hard. I remember my first major experience with physical healing. I was three. I fell down in the front yard, and agony shot up my right arm like lava running up my nerves into my brain. My mother and aunt came running out of the house, and moments later, street lights whizzed by… Read More »Five Steps to Healing from Crisis